Shit sucks still. I feel awful, very few things in my life are good. I'm going nowhere. My medication does not seem to help though my doctor somehow thinks it does.
I do not have a good relationship with anyone in my family.
I love my cat to pieces and am terrified of losing her.
I am not singing at all. I did in the shower a few times and I got scared that douchebag living here would hear me. I want to go to karaoke. I want to know how to write songs.
I keep dreaming about my ex-best-friend and Rocky. It sucks.
I'm still very, very far from who I want to be.
BUT I STILL HAVEN'T GONE BACK TO USING HEROIN SO HEY I'M A SUCCESS RIGHT?
I've seen a lot of movies. A few friends. Nobody really gets me except for my boyfriend. And since he knows what I am really like he is at a loss for how to fix me.
I guess that's all because most likely nobody will see this anyway